As you know from my posts while I was pregnant, I've been deeling with a lot of depression issues. I had hoped once R was born and the hormones leveled out I would be ok. That hasn't been the case. I had postpardum depression really bad. I know a lot of those can be caused by the hormones but I also know a lot of it was just dealing with my issues, the same things bothering me while I was pregnant. I believe most of the postpardum issues have passed however I'm still dealing with depression. Even though I'm breastfeeding I had to admit the problems were bad enough that I needed help and went on medication. It's not something I'm proud of, it's not something I'm happy about, but it's something I had to do.
Postpardum depression or any postpardum issues, while you hear about them more often they are still very taboo. Nobody wants to admit that they have trouble adjusting. I don't want to admit that I have trouble adjusting. Yes, I said have because I'm still having some issues. I plan to do a series of posts just talking about some of my issues. Not only does it help me to talk about them but I think it will help others to realize they aren't alone.
So lucky readers, are you ready? You better be.
Thank you for sharing your story ... I know that it'll help others! Sometimes our bodies, for whatever reason, become chemically/hormonally imbalanced and we need help getting things back to normal. It's not just a matter of having a better attitude or choosing to be "ok" ... frankly, who would choose to feel bad? For some weird reason, society sometimes thinks that depression is a matter of choice. It isn't ... and when one needs help, it's absolutely the right thing to do. If we have cancer or an infection, we don't say we should just get over it ... we understand that medicine will help. In my opinion, depression is the same thing ... it's an illness that is made better/cured by medicine.
ReplyDeleteOh Please do, I deal off and on with depression and anxiaty and we are just starting to try to concieve. I'm scared (which is not helping with the anxiaty. I'm nervous about not having the BC hormones to level me out.
ReplyDeleteI've been through depression as well, wrote one post (http://myroundfile.blogspot.com/2008/10/ghost-of-depression-past.html) and also listened to Brooke Shields book - wouldn't recommend that, as proud as I am for her to have spoken out, it really wasn't very good!
ReplyDeleteAnd..I should have also said - I hope you are feeling better with the medication. Glad you are reaching out for both help and support - I'll be thinking of you - GOOD LUCK!
ReplyDeleteThanks ladies! It helps to talk about it with others, but I really do hate talking about it with others. I'm doing a lot better with it now.
ReplyDelete@Amber - feel free to contact me at any time if you want to! I can tell you that you can go on depression meds while pregnant, certain ones are better than others. I almost had to go on them because the dr felt that the possible side-effects that it would give the baby were better than the amount of stress I was putting on her because of the depression. So that's something to think about.